Crossroads

My 3rd blog in my life, hopefully it sounds more optimistic than the first 2. I am at the crossroads of my life. Should I appeal to teach in CTSS, should I return to PSS, or should I just let God decide.

Sigh. The workload in NIE is starting to get ridiculous. 2 Test, 2 essays due this month alone. N its my birthday & CNY this month.

Sometimes I should learn how to let go, my students arent the same as they used to be. My sec 5s are all going to venture out into their new instituitions, n I cant be emo that I am not teaching at PSS anymore. Life has to move on. NIE is really nothing compared to the times spent in the classroom. The fun I reminisce, the torture I went through trying to get the P classes to shut up. Life seems more monotonous now.

Eugene is still ignoring me. Well, do I always have problems mixing with Eugene's my life. First is my ex-tuition kid, gave him birthday present, then he ignored me. Now this Eugene. not only Eugene, Jonathan's also, somehow now i seem to shudder knowing another Jonathan, coz all those in my lives were ungrateful & somehow made use of me one way or another.

Another crossroad in my life is cg, should i change cg. It seems that people dun even give a hoot about me in cg. Why is it I can clique with my students & not cg ppl? Should I change to Eugene's cg..lol.. he is the only eugene that seems fine.

What I do not like is ppl in cg living in delusion, they say the cg is growing, ya right. U dun grow when u transfer ppl over.. that is not called growing, that is called stealing..Seems quite ironic that now, no one wants to reach out to my kids anymore, its quite tiring if i have to be their play mate every week. Now it seems I made the right decision to let chuan shen join another cg, seeing how much he has grown really brightens up my day also.

Maybe I should just concentrate on being a good teacher, to my current tuition kids, n also be a good student teacher at nie. If they dun want to reach out, so be it. n I really think I will change cg after my birthday, should at least get a birthday gift first, after giving so much cg fund. lol..

Well last year, 2 of my students did so well, HS appeared on newspaper, andy was top in the whole level. Jonathan was a let down again, maybe next time i will not teach anymore jonathans.

Time to head back to studying..zzz.life is quite boring without L4D2..